The Quest Towards Perfection

Is not an easy task.

But it is a commandment. 

Matthew 5:48 "Be ye therefore perfect as your heavenly Father is perfect"

Man, this can be daunting.

When I signed up for this whole gig (completely the 2013 Cozumel Ironman). I was on fire. I had a set schedule and I was determined to do it. I knew it would be tough but the hardest thing is trying to balance everything else and putting away those other desires.

And this week I FAILED miserable. I only got up twice to work out and the work outs were LAZY.

While feeling like a total failure, I woke up saturday morning and began reading up on my lesson for Relief Society. A few things that President Snow said really resinated in my heart:


“Do not expect to become perfect at once. If you do, you will be disappointed. Be better today than you were yesterday, and be better tomorrow than you are today.”

“My young friends, there is an opportunity for you to become great—just as great as you wish to be. In starting out in life you may set your hearts upon things very difficult to attain to, but possibly within your reach. In your first efforts to gratify your desires you may fail, and your continued efforts may not prove what may be termed a success. But inasmuch as your efforts were honest efforts, and inasmuch as your desires were founded in righteousness, the experience you obtain while pursuing your hearts’ desires must necessarily be profitable to you, and even your mistakes, if mistakes you make, will be turned to your advantage.”³

Brothers and Sisters, we will fail in our lives, and we may be frustrated, and mad at ourselves when we do because we know that we are commanded to be perfect. But we must always remember that tomorrow is a new day. We must remember that we will fail but what is most important is that we get back up and get back to work.

So that is what I will be doing tomorrow. I will start tonight by taking another walk up the Y by myself to clear my head and tomorrow morning I will be back to the grind. I have put a few reminders on my mirror to see everyday:

If I Could Only Do One Thing...

For the rest of my life, I would 

DANCE

(You'll LOVE the video at the end)

Sunday Hike To The Y

After making lunch for a few friends this Sabbath day (thanks to my SIL Brooke, I am now fairly good at making a DELICIOUS thai meal and everyone was satisfied) my friend and I took a little walk outside and it was absolutely beautiful. He mentioned wanting to hike the Y and reminded me that I have been wanting to do that for a while.

But I got lazy, laid in bed and started to watch a chick flick. I began to think about how beautiful it is outside and how I was wasting the day away laying in bed. So I jumped up, changed my clothes and headed out the door. 

And I began the Hike alone:

Time to think, to reflect, and to enjoy all that God has given me. During my lesson today and girl in the class talked about how important it is that sometimes we shut off our minds and listen to our hearts. So I just tried to listen to my heart, I tried turning off my mind and just enjoying the time alone with my soul, and God's creations. 

I didn't have any crazy revelations, nothing really inspiring happened, I didn't make some big change in my current plans, I didn't get guidance one who I should date, I just hiked. I enjoyed the beautiful weather, the time I got away from the noise of the world, and the time I had alone to get back in tune with my spirit.

I believe that deep down our spirits know who we want to be, who we should be, and they can help us get there if we just take some time to be alone with them. 

Is This Really My Life?

I sit here still in my gym clothes smelling the lovely scent coming from my under arms thinking about my experience at good old Provo, Ut Gold's gym. Wondering about how I got here, this part of the single life, the part that I NEVER saw myself.

Is this really my life? Spending my free time at the gym with all of my "friends" having mindless conversations about dating and how fun it is to have random hook ups but also acknowledging the fact that its lame that one would even do that at our age.

Is this really my life? Going on dates with random guys I meet online, at a party, a friend set it up or from an app that basically is just telling you if you are hot or not (Tinder, the new app that lets you know people don't think you are good looking enough).

Is this really my life? Trying everyday to make the work place a place that people really want to be. Where they feel loved and appreciated and yet I can't seem to get it right.

I'd rather be spending my time conversing with the one person who just gets me, talking about the things we've learned from the past, where we see ourselves in five years, what we think about the Gospel of Jesus Christ, planning our children's names, wondering about the mysterious of the world together.

I'd rather be going on dates weekly with the one person that I can't live without. The one that makes me laugh at the dumbest jokes, who will listen to me rant about my new crazy idea and help me plan how I am going to accomplish it, the one guy who is finally on my team for forever.

I'd rather be at home with a bunch of kiddies to snuggle with, clean up after, kiss all day, to tell "I love you", to teach, to cook for, to dance with, to sing at the top of our lungs to ridiculous songs, to raise up in the Gospel of Jesus Christ.

But...

If we continue to search for that Golden Ticket without enjoying the chocolate we will miss out on so many delicious bites:

http://www.lds.org/broadcasts/article/general-relief-society-meeting/2011/09/forget-me-not?lang=eng

Maybe I can help turn those conversations at the gym into something informative and interesting and stop engaging in conversations that have no substance.

Maybe I can learn to enjoy my dates for who they are deep down and develop relationships with good people.

Maybe I can embrace everyday at work knowing that I may not be able to make everyone happy but I can try my best to make it the best environment that I can with all the love I can give.

Reality is I may never find that Golden Ticket in this life, but I can learn to enjoy every delicious bite of the chocolate.